I've pretty much been living day to day and seeing the best in every situation.... Because my mind is so up & down that I cannot possibly think ahead of myself at all. I don't mind it though, I've been even happier the past week than I have been, even recently. I think I'm finally figuring myself out. If I don't let myself get too far ahead, or let my hopes get too high, I am so much better off. And that's how I'm gonna try to do it ~ living in every single moment of every single day.
The "new guy" is outta there... All I can say for that is if you're about to turn 30, have no job (unemployment and I know times are hard but not even looking?!), don't drive and the most important activity you have is drinking, I'm sorry, but no amount of being a cute, nice guy is gonna change those facts for me. I'm 24, live on my own, work a full-time job, have my own business... things aren't gonna mesh well, end of story.
I've been spending my extracurricular time with J again... Not sure what I feel or what he feels, but he is the one seeking me out and I have no problem with that. Things feel differently and I'm living with no expectations, so we shall see where it ends up... someday. I have lots of days til the ending of my story, so I have nothing but time.
I have been lining up vending left and right, as well as racking in custom orders. I'm loving it! I seriously have so much faith in myself, like I've never had before. I feel like it's finally coming together... I thought I had it together last year, and things just kinda fell apart as time went on, but this time I don't see that happening. I've been keeping up to date, I just had a small snafu with a new PO worker, but that's all taken care of (she charged me the wrong postage so all 3 packages were returned, refunded, repackaged and resent..ugh).
Other than that stuff, I've been immersed fully in music, riding my beautiful yellow Schwinn, and spending time reading. I've become obsessed with unsweetened tea (I've always loved it, but it is officially my drink of choice) allll day, it's what I'm drinkin! I love this new feeling of just being content no matter what and it's just a beautiful thing.
Love you alll